Blog #2 (February 15/16th, 2025)

I know it's pretty crazy to do another blog the literal same day/next morning of the previous blog, but I really want to talk about some fun stuff! To bring some context for today, I went to a local hardcore show. While I've been to a couple shows beforehand, none of them were like this one. What makes this one stand out is that it was way larger than the shows I've gone to before. My first ever show was on Halloween, and I still hold that show in very high regard because it was the first time in a long time that I felt free. I got to dress up (but I didn't really do a good job with it, better luck next year!), and see a bunch of my friends out of the element I normally saw them as. While I consider them my friends now, they were really just other members of my radio station, but I really got to see who they really are outside of college for the first time. This show was different because unlike where the Halloween show was, and the other show I went to about a week ago, this was a venue made for a lot of people going crazy. And crazy they went. While the bands that played were absolutely sick, and the main attraction did incredibly and the crowd went crazy, I think the highlight has to be the other thing that happened tonight/last night.

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I wore lipstick for the first time in my life.

While that doesn't seem like much to other people, it means quite a bit to me. For some context, tonight/last night I formally met my friends' roommate, we'll call her 'M'. I technically saw her before, when a bunch of us went to go get ice cream together, but I don't think we exchanged a singular word then, so yeah, I met her tonight. Anyway, she was really sweet (and quite pretty!, but that's beside the point, I find most people to be pretty!). I forgot to hydrate myself, and to bring chapstick/vaseline/lip balm/something, and I've never been more glad to in my life. I asked around for something to help, and M (probably as a joke) offered me her black lipstick, of which I of course obliged. While I still look incredibly masc (doesn't help that my facial hair grows way faster than I wish it did), I liked the feeling of having lipstick on more than how it actually looked. I am biased, so I probably am just more hateful than I should, especially because M said it looked good on me!

I'm going to another show tomorrow/today, which will be a ton of fun as well, and I know more the bands playing the show better than I did for today/tomorrow's. I felt very gay and free tonight/last night, unfortunately, I'll have to go back to being boy-ish, since I'm also going home tomorrow night/tonight. Even worse, as I'm going home tomorrow night/tonight so that I can go to my grandfather's funeral tomorrow morning :(. I am at least glad I got to try makeup, and I will definitely be trying it again at some point, next time, maybe with it all done, as opposed to just my lips.

It'll probably be a bit before I write again, but I hope that next time it ends on a lighter note! TTYL! <3