September 5th, 2025 - "Silly, silly, silly, silly me"

Wowie...

It's been a real long time since I've done one of these. Partially my fault, partially the fault of others, and partially my fault once again. The last blog entry I made was in July... Oops. Here's a broad update that doesn't encompass a whole lot, but more so what I think and what I've been feeling like since my last blog. I felt like grinding this update out real quick while I eat my Stewart's ice cream I got a few days ago (Mint Cookie Crumble flavor, my beloved).

I'll start how my last blog ended. I finished Dune finally! Really really good stuff, and I could really go in depth about everything I like (and everything I dislike) about it, but that's for another time.

I'm now back at college, doing radio things, doing school work things, and doing Maxine things.

I've been making big moves. What are those moves? I don't know. But they certainly are big ones. I feel a lot different than I did even just last semester. Like a new person. I've gotten better at internalizing my problems and getting them out in more healthy ways. I'm not perfect by any means, but I feel like I am more mature than I've ever been in my life. I mean, that's really the goal isn't it? You want to be the best you that you can be, and continue to improve on yourself. I should have more knowledge today than I ever did before. I'm at a point where I feel like that's true.

I've also continued to listen to music like an absolute freak. In fact, I'm getting real close to 1,000 ratings on RYM (I'd be closer if I had rated every single release I've ever listened to tbh). Just a note, I had like 350 or something ratings like a year ago.

Honestly, those are the important summer updates out of the way I feel, (other than the time I got "hell's itch" from the beach in August, but I don't wanna talk about that actually Hell I experienced).

I moved into my dorm a few weeks ago. I've gone on some fun adventures since then.

The first day I moved in, nobody else had moved into the dorm yet so I was all alone... So I hung out with some of my friends from the radio station. Eventually my roommate/suitemates moved in, so I wasn't stuck in my dorm by myself. It's somewhat cathartic being alone. Sometimes I wish I lived all by myself. Other times in my life I've been glad to have never gone through that.

I'm now the "automation director" for the radio station. I've actually done some things, but they won't make sense to those who don't know. You gotta be in the know to know, you know? Basically it means I'm much cooler than you (unless you are in a higher e-board position than me, then you are almost as cool as me, but not quite).

I've been indulging in being gay and transgender much more. It's quite fun. You should try it some time. It's definitely got it's tribulations, but I'm getting closer and closer to just not giving a fuck and going all out. Like why care what other people think (unless you're my parents... I kind of still need financial support from them lol).

Also, I got a digital camera finally, which will be super awesome because I'll be able to directly upload my stuff to the website once I'm done with them. If you're a camera freak and you care, I got a Canon Rebel XSI w/ a Canon EF-S 18-55mm lens.

I also do want to make significant progress on this site, but my schedule's been quite busy. I plan on making big moves on this site, since I feel like that's the theme of my life right now. It's the most important years of my life, and I can't waste them being all sad and stuff.

Anyway, today was quite a good day actually. Like an amazing day perhaps. I don't really realize it in the moment since I'm all emo and gay and things so I have a hard time understanding the difference between the good and the alright, but I will definitely remember the day fondly in the future.

I went shopping with a friend of mine (YES WOMEN DO BE SHOPPING). I wanted to buy more stuff for being a girl. Like dresses, skirts, tops, etc. I also wanted some general cool stuff to have. Like I bought the "Watchmen" comic today. I've read through it like two times in the past in my high school's library, but I really wanted to own it for myself. It's probably my favorite comic book ever (I mean, Scott Pilgrim is really good and much more impactful to me, but in terms of which one I think is better, it's probably Watchmen). And yes, I fucking hate the movie because it sucks ass. Zack Snyder is not very good at making comic book movies, but I feel that it's not a reflection of his character (I have nothing against him as a person), he just genuinely does not understand comics at all. Like I think he might genuinely be media illiterate. Sorry I kinda ranted there lmfao

I also bought the "Look Back" manga because the movie made me sob like the little girl I am. I saw way too much of myself in the movie. Especially as an artist myself. Creating is something I love to do. If you haven't seen it, watch it, or read it like I'm going to.

I'm kind of sleepy, and I got some things coming up this weekend. I'll try to do more regular blogs like I did last semester. This time though, mostly positivity. No more of that emo shit I was on.

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