September 21st, 2025 - "Party hard"

Inevitably, it's really hard to write blogs. For good reason though. My life is too busy and chaotic and fun. It's awesome to be having an amazing start to my year, but also, really unfortunate because I don't have time to talk about all the cool things going on in my life. It's too long winded. I'm also a little hungover from last night and I have to meet with my parents for dinner... I really hope I don't reek of cigarettes and alcohol! I showered I promise. I'm not a degenerate.

I went to a show a couple days ago, and I will have a review (with pictures!!!) of it when I get the chance. I have to edit the photos and sift through them, and also I have photography homework and a project I gotta work on today, so that will be the main thing I will be doing tonight.

Last night I also went to a show, but there will definitely be no review or pictures... I got really drunk! It's fun. I don't condone drug abuse, but sometimes it's fun to drink alcohol and smoke cigarettes with friends at a show. I really liked one of the bands that played there, but tbh I don't rememeber most of the other bands' sets. I had a lot of fun with friends, but I kinda don't remember everything. I remember enough, but it's strange. Normally I can remember everything in great detail, but it's more like in and out. There's only a few things I can remember in great detail to be honest...

The main update is that I'm doing better now.

Oh, before I forget, I came out to my friends from back home. It went very well! I feel on top of the world. Like I've never been more confident in my entire life. I'm such a girl now. I do girl things. I dress like a girl. It feels amazing. I love living. It's hard to think that I was so depressed for so long. I can't say I'm no longer depressed, but I feel much more motivated to keep going. If depression is a tunnel, I'm seeing the light out the other end.

I think I'm ready for the next steps. There's a bumpy road ahead, but I want to love myself and I want to love others. I want to be loved and it has to start with me. And you guys as well <3

Short entry because I don't really know what to write about at the moment, but maybe I'll do more blogs soon.

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